Gone too long

I've been gone too long!!! There have been so many things on my mind, so many things to talk about!  I'm not sure where to start, but here goes.

In eleven days I will be thirty which has left me feeling very sentimental and extremely unfulfilled.  I am starting to see just how much family and friends mean and how much they complete my life and make life livable.  I also  feel my infamous biological clock ticking as well as an old maid vibe.  Though I'm not ashamed to admit these things, I am proud to say that this isn't the only thing that consumes my thoughts.  I want to make a difference in someone's life since I don't have any children of my own (physically).  I signed up for a mentoring program and I learned something very disturbing.  People that are interested in mentoring are not interested in teenagers as mentees.  My heart broke for those young people signed up with the mentoring agencies who need guidance from a young professional like myself.  The last thing they need is to be rejected after already not having proper guidance and positive influence.  I hate that people think that teenagers are "unreachable" and are already set in their ways.  I love adolescent girls, they have so much potential and they're old enough to learn the first time cause they already know right from wrong.  The 15 year old I was matched with can be well on her way to great things with the right guidance.  I hope to be that for her.  That makes me happy and leaves me with a feeling that I can make a difference in the world.  Now turning thirty isn't so scary.

I'm looking forward to starting my business (the infamous phrase lol).  I feel better about saying that this time than the others (147 times to be exact, just kidding).  That's because I have taken pretty much all the steps to start my business except buying furniture.  I hate that there are so many stylists in Memphis and I can't find ONE quality stylist.  Ugh!  Without that I don't know which way to go.  Start my business without a stylist, go for it myself, find one later and pay for two licenses?  Or wait on the perfect stylist, apply for one license and start the way I want to.  Who knows, but I think I like the latter.  I hate wasting money unnecessarily, and the first one sounds like it to me.  My logo is done, I'm legally a business, and I have my business plan already done up.  Now the only thing I'm missing is a stylist to put my plan into motion.  I CAN'T WAIT!

I won't speak of the popular "love" topic, only because if the" devil" (don't really believe in that) knew what was going on, it would only try to ruin it.  So, I'm happy (most of the time), I'm at peace and looking toward the future.  Though I will say this, people now days SUCK!  I can't believe people carry themselves like they do.  Women chasing after men, men allowing women to take care of them.  Women are more hood and masculine than the men now and they think it's cute.  Men think it's okay to sleep with any and everybody while being married and having babies outside their marriage.  And all the while, these women are accepting this from their "men" and staying with them like nothing ever happened.  People marrying for money or obligation, not love and having children in the midst of all of this.  I feel sorry for the kids cause their parents were too stupid to make a decision to not bring innocent babies into their mess.  Whoo! I have so much to talk about and not enough time.  I guess I'll break this for the night and continue this tomorrow because I feel myself about to start rambling.

Exceptionally yours...